How many will we have..

Put a hold to the crush thingy..as suddenly when u are in the mood to blog..so many things just comes in 1 shot and just dunno where to start..

just finish going through an oh so long mail from beng, somehow..he still gives the feel of being truly concern, real, and very very willing to offer a hand..no matter it's his shits, his craps, or his scandals, even his bullshit sometimes sounds real..WTF?! well, the one that i truly can share everything with is so far away and it's sad that we only resort to emails to share our life..ah yea those italk skype techy things are cheap but nah..our medium is email..

it made me think, how many real friends that we really will have in a lifetime. Friends that can touch ur soul, influence ur heartbeat, or even trigger the release of testosterones.. most importantly, to be there when really needed, even though sometimes u dun realize that u need them, they will still appear.. oh gawd i'm sounding so mushy and it gives me goosebumps..

thinking a lil' while.. the figure can be so scaring.. there are many friends for leisure, and even more for pleasure.. spending real entertaining and amazing time together.. but for the sore purpose of joy and play.. probably they will be serious when facing serious situation but u look at them as more of a joyous friend..

Is there anything to be done to have more heart to heart friends? or is the mere digit(s) what we are supposed to have.. is there a statement that goes by saying if u have many real friends, they are not real anymore.. probably we can afford to accept only the one(s) in our lifetime..